Canto III

Tuesday

Yet another day,

Millions of messages crossing my mind

No, I can’t send you all

I’m frightened as I type.

Airplane mode

Not enough

Turn off my phone

Not enough

Every thought brings me to you

To something else I want to say

To all the words I feel that I need to avoid,

To void, to keep away.

Should I share them anyway?

Again I find myself in the same state of mind I felt

yesterday.

I wish you out_

For a second

Give me a break

All you do is work work

There is no time for us.

I remember when that used to be my excuse

Maybe this is my karma coming to punish me

Hearts after hearts I break

I’m doomed to end with the same fate

God knows, I never did it on purpose

Give me a break dear destiny.

I’m not in control of my emotions these days

I feel sad for my misery

It’s so much easier when you have the upper hand

When you are the prey, you can escape.

But my messages set me up like traps.

Time to run!

Give myself a break

I need to clear my mind

They cannot win the light of my day

and the shadows of my night.

Go away, sad, sad Tuesday

Either way you bring me pain

There is a long long wait till Saturday.